bismillah. Allahumma solli 'ala sayyidina Muhammad wa 'alaa aalihi wa sohbihi ajma'in.
hi, silent readers. i hope the weekend went well? it's almost half of the ramadhan now. i don't know either i can achieve all my goals, but i 'm just, you know, do the best. this ramadhan challenge for me, not gonna lie i'm easily feel so exhausted, mentally and physically. i hope i could keep hustling till the end.
i've been distanced away myself from social media. especially instagram. i still remember how i was so addicted to instagram, like i don't mind the other socmeds, as long as i can post into my ig, that was fine to me. but now.. i rarely open my ig anymore. i will login to my ig if i feel like to. i even don't know what to post anymore even i have a lottttt of photos. i've stopped my one-go poem since i don't remember... i just, stop. while the other days, i was thinking that i cannot give up upon my ig, yet. i need it to promot stuffs. apparently, i've stopped it too. haha. pingping would be always pingping, right? no matter how hard she tried, but when she don't feels to like it, she will not going on. but i still have my all social medias. maybe i will be just wait for the perfect time.
so guess what, here i am again!! haha. pusing la mana pun, blog juga akhirnya dia kembali. haha.
i am not sure if there is still people reading blog but i dont mind... i just wanted to share my thoughts here, for my reading in future. lol
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4 May 2019
I found people keep saying this, i love you 3000, that quote was taken from the End Game movie, haha.
so every year, every ramadhan, every 'eid or every ocassion is not longer that very special anymore. i miss her, i miss him, like damn much.
i always questioning about why they leave me because sometimes, i am not that strong. it's very hard for me to keep, constantly strong. i know it is not healthy if i keep asking the same question. but it just... ya Rabb, i am so weak.
the little memory, really hits me hard. I still remember when my mama woke me up during sahoor, she asked me to eat sahoor but i refused to get up. she insisted me to, so she fed me with milks while my eyes were close, haha what a sleepyhead! and that time, i was not even 6years old.
after i grew up and learn about my religion. kids should be started their solah/prayers by 7years old, and the other obligations may follow. but when i recall back my little memory, now i understand why my mama did that.
and i am glad, ma. i am sorry i was stubborn to get up.
if i just have a little bit of time to return back, i would get up, even not to eat, but just to enjoy watching you.
honestly, that is the things we always wanted to say or do, only after we lost them.
appreciate them, if you still have them, or anyone,
they, us, i will return back to our Creator.
be good to each other.
talking about ramadhan, it is one day to go, in syaaAllah, may Allah get us into ramadhan, and bless us with the good deeds that He please. and please ya Rabb, help me, ease me, in everything to get closer to You.
